"Mathology"

I interviewed my math professor and came to this realization...
there is no longer a love for math, but instead, a fear.
but what we fear is what we do not know.  We have been so repetitively taught to absorb information and then regurgitate it onto a test, just to find ourselves emptied at the end of the day.
It's not about equations, or getting the value at the end of the day.
The goal is to be able to abstractly think on your own, but instead we are learning to mirror what is being put in front of us, because learning would actually take effort.

I found myself meandering around the halls of Cardwell one afternoon and found the most beautiful description of mathematics from John Kelley at University of California at Berkeley.

"Mathematics is an art, not a science.
A science is supposed to predict the outcome of an experiment, but the test of mathematics resides in its beauty.
A proof is judged on aesthetic grounds.
A computational result will be valued, but an elegant argument is much more interesting.
In fact, it is somewhat surprising that mathematics is so useful for science."